My half-brother is getting baptized today. I haven't stepped foot in an LDS chapel in, oh, 8 months now. But I get to today!
I'm dreading today a little bit. My oldest, and TBM, brother is in town, and apparently he's having issues. He's been acting cranky and he snapped at me a couple of times. I am not going to make any further effort to see him while he's here, but he'll be at a couple other family events, including today's baptism, so I can't avoid him altogether.
Part of me, the part that used to fight my non-mo brother and condemn him to hell, wants to fight about the NON-truthfulness of the church. But I'll go against my nature here, because really, the thought of that just makes me tired. He will either accept me as I am or not, and why put any energy into swaying his decision either way?
Here's one thing I've noticed though, but I can't prove that it's directly related to my exit from mormonism: I'm more able to see his point of view and adjust my behavior accordingly. After being allowed to calm down, vent with my sister, and talk with my husband and a friend, I realize clearly that my brother has other, extraneous issues that could be fueling his crankiness. I think I'm an easy target here because he knows I left the church and doesn't know how to deal with that.
Now, what do I wear? I don't own a dress. Skirt it is....