The concrete is drying, my in-laws are back at their home, and my husband is back to work after a week off. So I'm back to being a full-time mom after a much needed partial break. The driveway is far from completed, though, what with finishing off some of the edges, getting rid of the old concrete, fixing the earth underneath the old concrete, etc. There's still lots of hard work ahead of us.
Lately I've been thinking about books or movies that illuminate my state of mind when exiting the church. 1984, The Matrix, The Island, Equilibrium, Logan's Run, just to name a few. All of these have the same theme: some form of power is restricting humans from completely belonging to themselves. One character (or more) "wakes up" and sees that reality is not as they had always thought. After the initial shock wears off, they get determined to either overthrow the existing powers that be, or feel the need to wake up their fellow humans so that they to can know "reality".
If I were part of a Hollywood movie, my next step would be to take down the church administration. But I'm not. I am not trying to de-convert anyone. If someone talks to me openly, then I'll do the same. But I'm not out to destroy the church or its leaders. I'm ready to walk away (as much as I can do that, in Utah) and move on. I'm enjoying my Sundays, although because I don't go to church I've found it harder to come up with what day it is. :)
My oldest brother now is in the loop about my exit. I just have to say that my family has been pretty cool, and I'm lucky compared to some. Now I'm ready to end this post. Bye!