Another chapter of the saga-

La: finding myself within myself

Today is a good day for me and my boyfriend. This morning both of us hit 10 lbs of weight lost!! We have been counting calories for 4+ weeks now, since December 1st. We are both still excited and motivating each other, and we're feeling better than we have in months. It's a good day.

I need to write today and contemplate again why I am doing this. I simply am doing this as an exercise to keep myself on track and to not lose sight of the big picture. I do this because behind me right now there are donuts sitting on a table (someone brought in "late treats") and they look freaking delicious. Fortunately for me, they are BEHIND my back. Out of sight, out of mind, right? Yep.

Why am I doing this? Well. I'm sick of clothes fitting weird. I'm sick of my back hurting, and I'm scared that my knee has begun to have regular pain too. I'm tired of not fitting into seats in certain places.

I want to be fit enough to do anything I want to do. That's the real reason. As a female, a Sagittarius, and a lover of all things new, I daydream about adventures that I want to take. I want to hike to cool places. I want to hang glide and do other fun special-equipment activities. The only that has ever stopped me from being as adventurous as I want to be is my weight and how much of a struggle it is to be active.

I am gaining a new point of view about food: it is my sustenance, not my source of comfort. I eat now to nourish my body, not because I'm bored or because something looks good (damn donuts). That is a great achievement for me!

So I write because as I open myself up publicly, I believe I will be held more accountable for keeping up with my progress. Oh, I need to take a before-picture too, because I'm going to look very different here over the next few months. Maybe I'll be brave enough to post that before-picture publicly! Baby steps, Laura.

:)